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Don't touch me.
I can't be freed.
Thoughts,
Violent thoughts,
Grotesque thoughts.
Will never fill the need.
I will never succeed,
Making them leave me be.
I'm aware of them.
I know they're not real.
But something about them makes me feel.
But all they do is reopen the wound that wont heal.
They deprived all but fear,
Order, and balance.
These impulses float around in silence.
My actions are their voice.
I don't have a choice.
I fear I'm going insane.
The same routine every day,
Has caused my life to seem like a cliche.
They've taken everything from me.
What's left is an empty shell,
Living on what I used to be.
I close my eyes in ignorance.
And let this slip by.
I guess you can call me shy.
I'll keep my composure,
And live my life like nothing's making me lie.
Living like nothing's happening on the inside.
I can't be freed.
Thoughts,
Violent thoughts,
Grotesque thoughts.
Will never fill the need.
I will never succeed,
Making them leave me be.
I'm aware of them.
I know they're not real.
But something about them makes me feel.
But all they do is reopen the wound that wont heal.
They deprived all but fear,
Order, and balance.
These impulses float around in silence.
My actions are their voice.
I don't have a choice.
I fear I'm going insane.
The same routine every day,
Has caused my life to seem like a cliche.
They've taken everything from me.
What's left is an empty shell,
Living on what I used to be.
I close my eyes in ignorance.
And let this slip by.
I guess you can call me shy.
I'll keep my composure,
And live my life like nothing's making me lie.
Living like nothing's happening on the inside.
**EDIT** I redid it. I didn't like the other one.
Thought I should do one on Obsessive-Compulsive disorder, since I have it. I don't know if it's that good. I'm still kinda zoned out on my new meds. But that's sort of how I think when I'm off them and I let my OCD get out of hand. Well, not let, it does it on it's own.
I suffer from intrusive (mainly very violent) thoughts as one of my main symptoms and everything I see is a major accident (tragedy feels more like it) waiting to happen. It may not be very explanitory, since every OCD has their own obsessions. My dad (also OCD) has the fear of contamination and I have the fear of evil or sinful thoughts. And we both are compulsed to ward them away. I'm also obsessed with the number three (if you haven't noticed) and so everything I do has to evolve around that.
Thought I should do one on Obsessive-Compulsive disorder, since I have it. I don't know if it's that good. I'm still kinda zoned out on my new meds. But that's sort of how I think when I'm off them and I let my OCD get out of hand. Well, not let, it does it on it's own.
I suffer from intrusive (mainly very violent) thoughts as one of my main symptoms and everything I see is a major accident (tragedy feels more like it) waiting to happen. It may not be very explanitory, since every OCD has their own obsessions. My dad (also OCD) has the fear of contamination and I have the fear of evil or sinful thoughts. And we both are compulsed to ward them away. I'm also obsessed with the number three (if you haven't noticed) and so everything I do has to evolve around that.
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Holy wow. I know this submission is super old, but I just want to say how much this means to me, personally. It describes exactly what it's like to have intrusive violent thoughts. I've never spoken to a professional about it, so I can't say what causes it, be it OCD or otherwise, but man, did this poem speak to me. Dunno the last time that happened, can't say I'm huge on literature.
i guess I do have some things to be thankful for with it - I've created characters I love, written a couple songs, even had more inspiration for artwork. But overall it's... Kinda crappy, to say the least.
You sure are right with the whole "Has caused my life to seem like a cliche" thing. I draw or write down (or even just title a drawing) something to get it out, and I look back later and go "...what, did I think I was a Batman villain or something??"
Great job, and thank you.
i guess I do have some things to be thankful for with it - I've created characters I love, written a couple songs, even had more inspiration for artwork. But overall it's... Kinda crappy, to say the least.
You sure are right with the whole "Has caused my life to seem like a cliche" thing. I draw or write down (or even just title a drawing) something to get it out, and I look back later and go "...what, did I think I was a Batman villain or something??"
Great job, and thank you.